[A knowing understanding crosses his expression—he must have already discovered McCoy's absence then—but the feeling doesn't linger. As much as McCoy's absence hurts and will continue to ache for some time, right now the relief at Itachi's return is more powerful, and he won't turn away from it.
After a moment of contemplative silence, he speaks again, voice soft]
I would have been okay eventually. I wouldn't have let it consume me. I know it isn't what you'd want for me. [It would have been difficult and painful, but he would have made it out, he thinks. He isn't the same man that first arrived on the Ximilia. It feels important that Itachi knows this.]
But your place in my heart and in my soul would have remained unchanged for the rest of my days. [And this too, feels important to say.]
๏ผ the words soothe something he had not yet examined well enough to name. his eyes flicker closed, veiling his sight, and he breathes out steady and slow.
then: ๏ผ
Thank you.
๏ผ wei ying would survive.
sasuke will, too. ๏ผ
The nature of this place, when we return to our worlds... I did not recall you there. But you, too, were written in my soul. And returning here, and your side, is as much a homecoming as to Konoha.
[That elicits an involuntary sound from the back of his throat and he leans forward, clasping Itachi's fingers tightly in his own.
Homecoming. The same as Itachi's return had felt for him.
He had thought once that Lotus Pier was his home, but he finds now it isn't the halls he skipped as a child or the water of the lakes that he misses, as much loved as those placed were. It is his brother and his sister, his uncle, his shidis and shimei, and even Madam Yu. His home has always been people and his home has a new face now.
But he has never been claimed as home to someone else and his whole body aches with it.
He reaches up to hold Itachi's face between his hands and inhales tremulously.]
๏ผ he can't help it. the word, singular as it may be, earns a soft laugh. itachi leans in, and kisses the bridge of his nose in a way that's almost playful. or, as playful as he ever is. ๏ผ
You're not the only one who does independent research [he quips back, clearly pleased with himself, and nosing forward to trail kisses along Itachi's jawline.
Between kisses, he manages] You're not getting your blanket back. It lives here now.
๏ผ the laugh that follows is almost helpless, muffled as he turns against the man's bare shoulder. ๏ผ
Keep it.
๏ผ it's said softly. thoughtfully. ๏ผ
Perhaps its captivity will impel me to spend more time here as well.
๏ผ he isn't interested in giving up his space. he prefers his privacy too much, and wei ying's room is... loud. in both demeanor and decoration. nor would he expect the man could leave these quarters that have preserved gwen's memory so perfectly. but... timeshare he can do. that is simple enough. ๏ผ
It better. [He knows the smile on his face entirely undercuts the feigned threat, but he can't help it. Less than twenty-four hours ago, he'd felt like his world had caved in, and now his heart is full. Maybe even fuller than it was before Itachi left.
Itachi's laughter rings in his ears and Wei Wuxian's heart stutters in his chest, caught on the carefree sound.
It was worth every moment of sorrow to hear it now.
For a long while, he remains on Itachi's chest, alternating between sweet mumbled conversation and stretches of companionable silence that grow longer with every pass. As it turns out, he hadn't slept enough to make up for his lack, and eventually he drifts off right where he is with the steady rhythm of Itachi's breathing lulling him into the deep.]
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After a moment of contemplative silence, he speaks again, voice soft]
I would have been okay eventually. I wouldn't have let it consume me. I know it isn't what you'd want for me. [It would have been difficult and painful, but he would have made it out, he thinks. He isn't the same man that first arrived on the Ximilia. It feels important that Itachi knows this.]
But your place in my heart and in my soul would have remained unchanged for the rest of my days. [And this too, feels important to say.]
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then: ๏ผ
Thank you.
๏ผ wei ying would survive.
sasuke will, too. ๏ผ
The nature of this place, when we return to our worlds... I did not recall you there. But you, too, were written in my soul. And returning here, and your side, is as much a homecoming as to Konoha.
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Homecoming. The same as Itachi's return had felt for him.
He had thought once that Lotus Pier was his home, but he finds now it isn't the halls he skipped as a child or the water of the lakes that he misses, as much loved as those placed were. It is his brother and his sister, his uncle, his shidis and shimei, and even Madam Yu. His home has always been people and his home has a new face now.
But he has never been claimed as home to someone else and his whole body aches with it.
He reaches up to hold Itachi's face between his hands and inhales tremulously.]
ใๅธฐใ.
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That was not one I taught you.
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Between kisses, he manages] You're not getting your blanket back. It lives here now.
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Keep it.
๏ผ it's said softly. thoughtfully. ๏ผ
Perhaps its captivity will impel me to spend more time here as well.
๏ผ he isn't interested in giving up his space. he prefers his privacy too much, and wei ying's room is... loud. in both demeanor and decoration. nor would he expect the man could leave these quarters that have preserved gwen's memory so perfectly. but... timeshare he can do. that is simple enough. ๏ผ
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Itachi's laughter rings in his ears and Wei Wuxian's heart stutters in his chest, caught on the carefree sound.
It was worth every moment of sorrow to hear it now.
For a long while, he remains on Itachi's chest, alternating between sweet mumbled conversation and stretches of companionable silence that grow longer with every pass. As it turns out, he hadn't slept enough to make up for his lack, and eventually he drifts off right where he is with the steady rhythm of Itachi's breathing lulling him into the deep.]