It is natural to wish to go beyond your capacity as well. Most people dream of being stronger, or smarter, or better at what they do. We all wish to be remarkable, to be memorable in some way.
（ once upon a time, he too had dreamed of being hokage. ）
You were exhausted, overtaxed, and it killed you. That is consequence enough, without adding guilt or shame to what followed.
（ he does not like admitting it. but he has not held an expectation of being cared for much of his life — and this is already overwhelming for him, like the taste of something sweet on the tongue of an ascetic. ）
[Blue bows his head once more, already dimming in form. when he lifts his head, his mouth moves, speaking to something, but there's no thought or sound to perceive, and he's gone just as swiftly as any attempt to understand - almost like a light switch was flipped.]
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this is why you're off my christmas list
（ unsurprisingly. blue is perilously easy to care for. ）
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I know. My own strength...failed us both. He's done so much for my sake.
You all have.
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（ there's an edge to that sentiment, backed by a swell of anger. ）
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What do you call it, then?
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You have fought longer and harder than most. Reaching your limit is not failure, it is life.
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And, maybe...railing against that limit...is also another facet.
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（ once upon a time, he too had dreamed of being hokage. ）
You were exhausted, overtaxed, and it killed you. That is consequence enough, without adding guilt or shame to what followed.
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Going above and beyond...that, too, I think. [so guilt and shame aren't going anywhere! this Mu doesn't purge his feelings, however burdensome.]
But I thank you...for your perspective.
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（ it's perhaps more of a challenge than his usual mild neutrality. he is all jagged edges, worn rough and raw. ）
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is it because of him?]
If I can do no more for you, then...it must be.
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That is enough.
（ he does not like admitting it. but he has not held an expectation of being cared for much of his life — and this is already overwhelming for him, like the taste of something sweet on the tongue of an ascetic. ）
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