( purely so. he cannot even guarantee it will work, that it will not make things worse, that it is not all just the soft, wishful, naïve thinking of a man already at his end. )
( 'and be silent' is probably inferred, but it's not said with his usual curtness. he is genuinely... concerned for blue's condition, in his own way, and does not conceal it as he generally does behind a wall of practiced stoicism.
shinobi rarely die from illness. he can think of only one person besides himself that has succumbed to slow disease — shisui's father, who had lain in bed with injuries from the war, who was prone to violent flashbacks of the battlefield he would inflict on anyone near him when he was in their throes with the strength of his genjutsu. they used to have to cover his eyes and, as his condition worsened, seal them entirely.
so he is not... accustomed, to adjusting his tolerance of someone's weakness on a scale such as this. most, in his world, die quickly. what is happening to blue is a long, drawn-out thing. and he is worried. )
[the silence follows quite naturally even without that endcap - it's coaxed along by that gentle current of concern Blue can feel. it squeezes at his heart, leaving behind an ache that is something bittersweet...and he knows speaking to it would only be an offering of pain for a man who seems quite oversaturated with it.
so instead, Blue goes quiet, save for the shifting sounds of better bundling up and settling more comfortably, hoping maybe that much is more assurance than any words he could give.
he can't change the truth of the matter, after all.]
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Your efforts...Will not also do so?
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( purely so. he cannot even guarantee it will work, that it will not make things worse, that it is not all just the soft, wishful, naïve thinking of a man already at his end. )
Whatever changes as a result will be incidental.
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From one lens. But...perspective is everything, isn't it.
The changes you wish for...will ripple out. Same as everything.
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Of course. I am not denying they will.
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But it is...all a matter of perspective, isn't it.
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That is life. Everyone creates their own reality. Lives it, and dies in it. What is true is nothing more than perspective, as you say.
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Blue exhales a soft hum.]
Unfortunately...I have no better revelations tied to that, even from a Mu perspective.
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( 'and be silent' is probably inferred, but it's not said with his usual curtness. he is genuinely... concerned for blue's condition, in his own way, and does not conceal it as he generally does behind a wall of practiced stoicism.
shinobi rarely die from illness. he can think of only one person besides himself that has succumbed to slow disease — shisui's father, who had lain in bed with injuries from the war, who was prone to violent flashbacks of the battlefield he would inflict on anyone near him when he was in their throes with the strength of his genjutsu. they used to have to cover his eyes and, as his condition worsened, seal them entirely.
so he is not... accustomed, to adjusting his tolerance of someone's weakness on a scale such as this. most, in his world, die quickly. what is happening to blue is a long, drawn-out thing. and he is worried. )
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so instead, Blue goes quiet, save for the shifting sounds of better bundling up and settling more comfortably, hoping maybe that much is more assurance than any words he could give.
he can't change the truth of the matter, after all.]