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[blackfire]

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[firstroar]

I've noticed.
It must mean something that you've entertained conversation with me as long as you have.

[blackfire]

You are a threat.

Assessing the level of that threat requires familiarity.

（ did u think it was sentiment, blue. did u. ）

[firstroar]

By then perhaps I will be seen as something different.

[blackfire]

No.

You cannot change what you are. Anything else you may become in my mind will live alongside that, it will not replace it.

[firstroar]

My nature is the threat, then?

[blackfire]

We are alike in that.

It is not an insult, Blue.

（ at least he's not a hypocrite about it. itachi knows full well that he's one of the most dangerous people on the ximilia — something that may serve him well should a mission require something, as sabriel said, vile. ）

[firstroar]

Nor a condemnation I suppose.
It is a little difficult to understand you, but I think I have a little better.

[blackfire]

（ you sure the fuck do not, buddy. ）

You are perceptive. I imagine it serves you.

（ telepath versus nearly-lifelong double agent, who will win?? itachi has spent so long suppressing his true nature he's not even sure if he can call it that, anymore. that gentle child is quite likely gone forever, the first casualty of the massacre. ）

[firstroar]

I've come to understand such abilities serve more than myself by design.

[blackfire]

And doubtless they lead to others taking advantage.

[firstroar]

That's only an issue if I'm somehow unable to perceive it. [VIVECA...] But anyone asking for my support would have it, should I be able to give it.

[blackfire]

That's foolish of you.

（ being taken advantage of doesn't always mean the person is aware of doing so, dummy. ）

[firstroar]

[SHH ITS FINE]

I don't think I mind at this stage. It may change later on, but I can't say for certain.

[blackfire]

'Stage' meaning the borrowed time on which you live?

[firstroar]

Yes.

[blackfire]

What exactly is it that you regret?

[firstroar]

What I did is something I will never do again, and that's all that needs to be said.

[blackfire]

Do not kill yourself making up for it.

If you shoulder the emotional burdens of others, they will eventually eat you alive. You do not have the capacity to bear it all.

[firstroar]

Keeping myself from repeating my sin will not keep me from bearing my share of effort here. It's in my nature to connect, and it was my role to support.
Even if I never undo what I have done, I can at least see others to better place in whatever capacity I can.

[blackfire]

（ hm.

he's the only one allowed to be a stupid martyr around these parts, blue, get a new gig. ）

I see.

[firstroar]

[that won't stop me bc i can't read]

Unless you've other questions to bring up, I suppose we can leave things here for now.

[blackfire]

Yes.

Until then.