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[blackfire]

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[blackfire]

What of yourself?

[firstroar]

The sense of time is unreliable here; it's hard to keep track of the psionic blackouts. The duration.
But I haven't been harmed.

[blackfire]

And your health?

[firstroar]

It's not good.
But the chakra has helped.

[blackfire]

Have you spoken with McCoy-sensei?

[firstroar]

Not yet. I don't know what it will matter, given he cannot reach me where I am.

[blackfire]

I believe that is very likely to change soon. The war is inevitable at this point.

[firstroar]

I don't understand... What the wish in play is here...
The way things are...can't be what was wanted, can it?

[blackfire]

Why not? Sentient creatures are largely foolish and irrational. Wanting people to hate one another and war is not an unusual sentiment.

[firstroar]

Is that so...

[blackfire]

Surely you have seen it yourself.

[firstroar]

From my experiences, it is not as you say.
But where I am from is very different. People are different.

[blackfire]

From what you have told me, people are barely permitted to act as such where you are from.

How do you think they would function without the machines?

[firstroar]

It is said that the machines were installed to free humanity from the burden of governance, held aloft by the idea that no human could be truly just, truly fair...
I don't know, Itachi. I don't know what the whole truth of human nature is, even here among those untouched by that system. I would need...so much more time.

[blackfire]

What lies in understanding, for you?

[firstroar]

Hope.
That there can be some change for humans and Mu back there... That if Soldier Shin can break the shackles of Superior Domination...it won't open the path to more loss and bloodshed.
Another thing...that can't be known...until one is there.

[blackfire]

Do you have faith in him? The Mu that stands to replace you.

[firstroar]

Yes. Not only is he stronger than I ever was, but he still retains his memories of living a human life. He may be the bridge we need to cross that gap.

[blackfire]

How might he fail in this?

[firstroar]

There is so much, Itachi.
The military, their weapons, that planetkiller... The propaganda fed to the people, painting us as monsters...
If I could've shouldered that burden myself instead, I would have. He was so young when his journey began.
But there is no changing it. Not without great consequence. I understand that now.

[blackfire]

Your people survived as they did as long as they did because of what you shouldered.

You are allowed to rest.

Whether he succeeds or fails is not a reflection on you. You did everything you could.

[firstroar]

I wonder...if that is the sort of thing anyone can truly believe. For themselves. In their own circumstances.
We are here...having refused to put something of our pasts to rest, after all. Believing there was more that could be done.

[blackfire]

I do not think that having regrets in your life means you cannot be satisfied at its end.

Having a chance to change an aspect of my history is... meaningful to me, but it is not necessary. I have already lived longer than I intended to.

[firstroar]

[after a delay:] I think...I will hope that stays true.

[blackfire]

（ hm.

what is there to say to that?

nothing, so — he does not reply. ）