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[singlelogbridge]

[He thinks that the point of this goal is that it doesn't matter what he thinks, that's why it's awful, but he isn't going to say that.]

What I think is that if it were my goal, I'd probably fail, that's all.

[blackfire]

（ cruel, he'd said. one word. he was not thinking it cruel for himself — wei wuxian never dreams of putting himself first in anything. his thought was for itachi, and even now he thinks to save him face by stepping into the line of fire, letting the lie lay between them, that the word had only been selfish consideration and not empathy for a friend he sees too much of himself in.

anger simmers, though he does not know its source. rare, for one who is so keenly self-controlled, who walks the edge of emotion like a knifeblade. ）

That is not what you thought.

It is what you are saying, because you think I would refuse your compassion.

[singlelogbridge]

[Wei Wuxian pauses to wonder when he became quite so transparent to his friend. Itachi has seen through him before, but somehow this hits harder than those times. Or maybe Itachi has just been graceful enough not to call him out before.]

I think if I told you the things I admire about you, you would stop talking to me.

And compassion for people like us can be a barb.

[blackfire]

I already know the things you admire about me.

It is not enough for me to cease speaking with you.

It is natural to feel compassion for a friend. It does not offend me.

[singlelogbridge]

[A wave of emotion surges over him and he wants to shake Itachi by the shoulders for reasons that he can't entirely discern. Itachi has done nothing to warrant it, and Wei Wuxian lets out an annoyed sigh at himself, shaking the feeling off.]

Then I think it's cruel because I know for people like us...even if I don't know what you've done, it weighs on you. I know you carry it.

And I don't know how someone who carries that can see past it to admire anything about themselves at all. No matter how much is there to admire.

[blackfire]

What weighs on me or doesn't, what I carry or don't is not your business.

This is not a difficult task for me. Take care not to think us too alike, Wei Wuxian.

[singlelogbridge]

[Months ago, he probably would have believed him. Now, he's not so sure. Either way, he takes the cue that this part of their conversation is over. He has no desire to try to push Itachi when his friend is clearly laying down a boundary. Anyway, Itachi is definitely right about one thing, and it's that it's none of his business.]

I'm sorry then, for assuming. And I have an unrelated question for you. What do you think counts as an act of violence?

[blackfire]

You could try punching someone.

[singlelogbridge]

Yeah. But I don't have an interest in punching someone who doesn't deserve it. I was hoping I could get away with something smaller. Pinching or flicking. Something like that.

I'll figure it out.

[blackfire]

Ask the others.

There is always someone willing to endure physical violence for someone else's goal.

[singlelogbridge]

[He sighs and files that away. He kind of still hates it on principle, but he supposes if he can find someone willing, that'll work.]

Alright, I'll ask. Thanks.