[He closes his eyes, remembering the way Lan Wangji had fallen to his knees and reached for him. No, this wasn't just the shock of reunion. This was more.
Still, Itachi is right. If he allows his own guilt to get in the way of things, he'll only hurt Lan Wangji more.
It doesn't mean it's an easy thing to digest. To know the pain he'd inflicted on his friend had never really healed. ]
You're right. I know. I just...I wanted him to be okay. I wanted him to forget me, as much as he could anyway. [I wanted him to be happy.]
We do not get to choose what people keep of us when we die. If he's spent that intervening time mourning you, that is his business, and it is not your fault.
[It is, he wants to argue. It's his fault. He was in that position because of the stupid decisions he made. He was the one that failed everyone. He was the one that met Lan Wangji's eyes on the cliff that day and chose to fall anyway.
I did this.
But an argument like that is exhausting, and he doesn't want to have it. Not with Itachi. Right now he wants to hold onto his words like a lifeline.]
it is pretty hard to forget someone as annoying as me.
I know that's not what you meant. I know. Let me have this just this once.
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Do not allow his reaction to set the stage for the remainder of your time together.
๏ผ because, without knowing at all what their reunion looked like, wei wuxian's reaction has told him enough. ๏ผ
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Still, Itachi is right. If he allows his own guilt to get in the way of things, he'll only hurt Lan Wangji more.
It doesn't mean it's an easy thing to digest. To know the pain he'd inflicted on his friend had never really healed. ]
You're right. I know. I just...I wanted him to be okay. I wanted him to forget me, as much as he could anyway. [I wanted him to be happy.]
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We do not get to choose what people keep of us when we die. If he's spent that intervening time mourning you, that is his business, and it is not your fault.
You are not one forgotten so easily.
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I did this.
But an argument like that is exhausting, and he doesn't want to have it. Not with Itachi. Right now he wants to hold onto his words like a lifeline.]
it is pretty hard to forget someone as annoying as me.
I know that's not what you meant. I know. Let me have this just this once.
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๏ผ here he is, letting you have this once. ๏ผ
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Feeling up for a game of go?
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Very well. Come to my quarters.