๏ผ he has been a tool for so many years, he scarce recalls if he was ever a person at all. he supposes the transition must have happened when he put all his hopes and dreams for the future away, and ceded the whole of his being to danzล's will — and his father's. clara told him she was going to figure out how to make him have fun, and that is something that has settled in his mind like a splinter. ๏ผ
You may be the only person here who understands exactly what that means. It is not accurate to say I would miss you, but I would hold an awareness of your absence.
๏ผ he exhales a faint, amused gust of breath, propping his elbow up on his knee, resting his fingers in the crown of his dark hair. it's a casual posture, though that is hardly uncharacteristic — he does have a tendency to make poise look effortless. ๏ผ
My saying that was not intended to elicit an offer of help.
No, but... Things like that...the mean more when they're said aloud, right? [as opposed to just being felt. that's how humans seem to operate, he's finding.]
Either way...if my resolve changes... I'll tell you.
[he nods, shifting to get his feet under him before holding out a hand for the help up. this is becoming a more practiced exchange between them, isn't it? even in such a short span of time.
time is weird, though: fifteen years vanished in the blink of an eye, but hours here linger...until the next breath, when Blue finds it's been solar months on board, away from the Shangri-La. it's both new and old at the same time.]
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๏ผ he has been a tool for so many years, he scarce recalls if he was ever a person at all. he supposes the transition must have happened when he put all his hopes and dreams for the future away, and ceded the whole of his being to danzล's will — and his father's. clara told him she was going to figure out how to make him have fun, and that is something that has settled in his mind like a splinter. ๏ผ
You may be the only person here who understands exactly what that means. It is not accurate to say I would miss you, but I would hold an awareness of your absence.
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Blue looks at him for a length of time, impressing this moment into his memory with greater care.]
If there's a way...I can help you. I will. If you reach for it.
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My saying that was not intended to elicit an offer of help.
๏ผ you predictable fool. ๏ผ
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Either way...if my resolve changes... I'll tell you.
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๏ผ and on that note it's high time for him to get the fuck hence. he stands, gives blue a polite nod — ๏ผ
Do you require assistance back to your room?
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time is weird, though: fifteen years vanished in the blink of an eye, but hours here linger...until the next breath, when Blue finds it's been solar months on board, away from the Shangri-La. it's both new and old at the same time.]
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he does not speak again — simply leads blue back to his quarters, and then escapes to his own. ๏ผ