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[firstroar]

No.
I can't let this place go.
Not anymore.

[blackfire]

Then you will change your regret?

[firstroar]

It is already changed in my heart. Whether I must declare so somewhere remains to be seen.

[blackfire]

The orbs will require payment of you.

[firstroar]

Yes. That seems to be the case.
They've taken much of me already.

[blackfire]

Regarding?

（ he has been... busy, and has not spoken with sabriel — so he has yet to know there was a cost for resurrection. it would not, at the very least, surprise him to learn. ）

[firstroar]

[there's a delay in answering for selfish reasons, knowing Itachi will have even more excuse to throw him away now.

it'll be okay. either way, it will be okay.]

My psionics.

[blackfire]

（ actually he's just glad you won't be rooting around in his brainmeat anymore, but — he knows how much a part of blue his abilities are. they are even more intrinsically tied to him than the sharingan is to the uchiha. ）

Do you feel it was a worthwhile trade?

[firstroar]

Only time can tell, I think.
I won't know if it was the right thing until the end.
For now, I have to hang onto what power is left to me and hope it's enough.

[blackfire]

（ hm^TM. ）

The loss of connection must be very difficult for you to bear.

How are you supplementing it?

[firstroar]

It is taking some adjustment and help; when the sense fails, those nearby or who sense it are able to keep me oriented. To help assure that those here are real, not simulations like that town.

[blackfire]

（ reality is subjective anyway — each person's perception of the world builds their own in the mind, and no two are exactly alike. he knows all too well how one's reality can be given form. ）

If you require assistance that falls within my purview, please let me know.

[firstroar]

My hope is to manage this as to not become a greater detriment to you or others, but I will inevitably need help.
Thank you.
Your eyes...did you proceed with what was offered you? From Viveca.

spontaneously backdating this to the 18th

[blackfire]

Yes.

[firstroar]

Have there been any issues since?
Hidden, underlying "costs" for the effort...

[blackfire]

It does not appear so thus far.

McCoy-sensei has agreed to facilitate the surgery in a few days' time. I expect the recovery will be several more days beyond it.

If there is more to bear, I expect it will follow that.

[firstroar]

[hm...]

If complications arise, Leonard may attempt to mitigate the risk with his own will... and so this strange web of wishes and consequences continues to be woven.

[blackfire]

He would be foolish to do so.

（ but now he's going to have a chat with the man about it, just in case. ）

[firstroar]

I don't know if he would see it that way.

[eyesight jab not intended.]

[blackfire]

Then I will speak with him.

（ only one self-sacrificial bitch allowed in this house thank u. ）

[firstroar]

I hope the procedure is successful, either way.

[blackfire]

Your well-wishes are appreciated.

However, if it fails, I lose nothing I have not already come to terms with. So please, do not concern yourself.

[firstroar]

That's a difficult thing to ask of a Mu.

[blackfire]

Then concern yourself an appropriate amount, and do not tell me.

（ gallows humour... ）

[firstroar]

[bruh]

As you wish.